Have you ever had that feeling that you are changing? Or maybe it hits you one day that you no more think and feel about certain situations and issues the way you used to. I am feeling just like that, it is throwing me into some kind of inner turmoil, I am questioning certain things I have believed in and it is truly unsettling.
I don't think it is a bad thing though because it is too easy to get stuck in some kind of autopilot and just live life like you have default settings just programmed into you to be a certain way. Life doesn't seem to permit us to go unchallenged and thank God for that you know? You should be open to being tested in order to grow and sort through certain assumptions you just pick up that you never question. I mean what if your assumptions are wrong? It just feels uncomfortable when you are going through the process of change and let's be real no one likes to be wrong.
Hey what can I say? That's life and change is one of the only constants in it as I have heard so many times, so it is what it is and everything is everything and... [insert any inspirational quote or almost worn out phrase about change here]
I think probably the most unsettling thing about everything is on some level I know that there is a consequence for growing and changing, I know certain choices and decisions I am making or I am going to make is not going to make me acceptable to certain people who might have embraced me before and that is just something I am going to have to accept.